You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Sunday Slowdown

I do morning shifts every Sunday which feels like one day less from my workweek (because Sunday's not really busy plus there are no bosses around). And every Sunday, I whine about how i didn't sleep enough and that I am so tired considering I just got back from my days off. But today, I had someone else to whine with because I was working with Carrie and it made me feel normal, and really better. :)

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Coming home from work, I played Naruto with him and after some theoretical tutorial, I actually won! Wohoo! That was exhilirating and when played occassionally, can do wonders to your self-esteem.

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I saw newly uploaded photos of some people in Boracay and somehow, I felt betrayed. Not because I am not with them in the photo but because I suddenly felt loyalty to one of my friends was questionable. And I know that questioning loyalty is not a good thing. But I also know that when something's bothering you, something's not right. Hence, the feeling.

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Putting up Christmas trinkets have been a ritual of sorts for our family, which I happily adapted when I came over here. After All Saint's and All Soul's Day on November, we would start putting up all things elated to Christmas. Last Friday, I took down my Christmas decorations and my apartment is now back to its normal state.


These Christmas decorations conveyed a lot of merriment during the holidays that it actually made me excited to wake up in the morning to see giant red stockings staring down on me. It made my day brighter and somehow told me that no matter how ugly the day turns out to be, Ill be coming home to a place where a star is shining on top of a tree. :) And that alone made all the difference.

8 comments:

  1. about the Christmas decors or Boracay? or Both? I couldn't even look at the photos. Shit! wala na ulit akong kaibigan dito.

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  2. Who are you pertaining to ba sa The one who betrayed...

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  3. Si paw. Feeling ko kasi sila na yung tropa. alam mo yun? alam mo naman ako, selfish pag dating sa friends.

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  4. Exactly what i felt :-) pero d n kc ako affected kay pau dahil alam kong magkasundo talaga sila ni kirsty. Parehong slow. Hahaha. Teka bka may iba pang nakakabasa netong blog mo ha hahaha. Ang sakin lang, wala na xang sense of loyalty kahit d na sating dalawa, sa tropang cinco na lang. Ewan, but that's what i felt, natunugan ko n un nung nagstat c janin few days b4, den came d pix. Dko rn tiningnan lahat la lang, d ako interesado. May sarili clang mundo. :-)

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  5. AKo rin, hindi ko natiis..Nung una, parang curious pa ako...pero nung nakakita na ako ng mga 10 photos sabi ko, hindi na lang...hay boi...buhay nga naman...wag mo ako ipagpapalit ha? :)
    p.s. ikaw lang follower ko e... so i dunno kung may iba pang nkkbasa nito.

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  6. Hahaha ako nga nakaprivate eh at ikaw lang ang inallow kong makaview hahaha. Kung d nMn nla alam na may blog ka at ang url, d man nla mbabasa,nkapublic ka man ung mga mkkbasa neto eh d nMn ntn kilala hahaha! Kung loyalty lang ang paguusapan, d tlga kta iiwan haha parang m0tto ko lng yan pg my jowa "i may not be the perfect gf in the world but 1 thing i can be sure of is...i am loyal" hahahaha

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  7. sabi ko boi, i'll let it go nalang at tanggapin...punta ka na kasi dito!!!!

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