You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Monday, July 19, 2010

The good, the bad and the ugly

To end this entry in a positive note, let's give it a twist and do it the other way around: the ugly, the bad and the good.

THE UGLY: (just for this, I wanna be cynical) She's back! Damn it! I cringe at the thought that I'll be seeing her again this weekend. Oh man, the past couple of weeks were fine. I was fine. Not perfect but pleasant. And I haven't felt that in months! And now, I feel sick in my gut. Literally. I feel the world is closing down on me. When he told me he went to their place this morning and he has some "stuff" from her/them, I wanted to puke. Seriously?!?! She thinks that getting me a shirt and hopia will bridge the gap? Seriously. *shooks head* It's not that I am expecting more from her because really I don't give a *toot*. On the contrary, I want to be left alone. I want her to quit bugging me because with all (brutal) honesty, I am pikon. And nobody likes me when I'm pikon. I turn into a totally different person (or creature). Once she decides to stop and give me the peace and quiet that I want and not to mention, truly deserv, I'll be meek and quiet and she'll see me at my best.

THE BAD: A number of small things: Number one: I am doing morning shift again tomorrow and I am exhausted. I recall one of the millions of WOW my ninang has randomly injected in our long conversations: "Kaya nga tinawag na work eh kasi mahihirapan ka. Eh di sana tinawag nalang na 'fun' or 'play' kung walang kapagod-pagod." She has a point. Number two: I have..hang on, let's make that a "we". We have exceeded our weekly food budget. Argh! Just when we have it all plotted down on a white board. Tsk. Number three: one of my friends want to stay low key in the world of social networking and interactive connections. And I'm affected. It's odd for her to be in this mode but I say it is not good.

THE GOOD: My team coordinator, thinks it's now time for my promotion! She actually believes I got what it takes to be a notch higher. Wow! :) I feel promoted already! hahaha It was lasagna Monday at work today and I just ate half of it. Half goes to Gelo, of course. Plus, I have 2 containers full of sisig that'll last 'til next week, perhaps. Next, it's my birthday in less than a month and our 94th tomorrow. That's not only good. That's amazingly GREAT!

Good vs. Bad?
Good wins.
Good always, ALWAYS wins.
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