You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

i felt it wasn't time

we were running some errands yesterday. and the next minute, we found ourselves in a jewelry shop choosing an engagement ring for me with his family hovering around us. it was an awkward situation as i felt they were pushing him to get me a ring. i myself found it rather embarassing as i pictured this scenario very differently. the eager saleslady adding to the pressure and the hype wasn't helping at all. it was like what everyone else wanted, except us...so we stepped aside for a minute and he asked me if i really want that ring. i actually do love the ring. it was perfect when i saw it! white gold, princess cut 18 carat diamond...it's everything a girl could ever wish for. so i timidly said yes, but deep inside feeling awful because i somehow felt it wasn't right. we walked back up to the counter, chose more from the array of rings infront of us and started comparing the pros and cons of the other pieces of sparkling diamonds. his family soon vanished in the background and i told him that we should do it some other time.

moments ago i told him, "it's your decision whether you want to buy the ring or not. and if you think you want to buy me that ring, hold on to it and give it to me when you feel that you are ready to settle down, without pressure from others. it's your chance to show me what you'll be promising me and what you'll be doing for me for a lifetime so don't blow it. don't waste your chance." and he nodded and kissed me lightly.

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